Somewhere in a book I have never read (Perfect Match), Jodi Picoult said, "Sometimes when you pick up your child you can feel the map of your own bones beneath your hands, or smell the scent of your skin in the nape of his neck. This is the most extraordinary thing about motherhood - finding a piece of yourself separate and apart that...
The other day I had a three year old come up to me and say "my mom loves me so much, but I don't love her." My heart sank and I imagined my son saying this to someone or even to me... I wanted to look at that sweet three year old and say "NO! you cannot say those things!!" Instead, God drew me to say "That's so sad. You know, sometimes it's SO hard to love other people and we can't do it. This is why we need Jesus." That's all I could muster to get out. There's so much more to the why we need Jesus part of the conversation, but that's all I was able to say in the midst of my shock (and the child was 3 - how much was really being understood?). I then looked at this sweet child and said "Well, you were right when you said your mommy loves you so much and when you are able to love your mommy, I think it would be very wonderful if you told her how much you love her.
Soon after this conversation the momma walked in, looking flustered. I looked at her and said, "you're doing an amazing job at this momma thing."
I can't get this interaction out of my mind, but I'm so thankful that it happened.
Soon after this conversation the momma walked in, looking flustered. I looked at her and said, "you're doing an amazing job at this momma thing."
I can't get this interaction out of my mind, but I'm so thankful that it happened.
Every night before I put Watson to bed, every time before I lay him in his bed (or while I swaddle him while putting him in his bed), I find myself singing Be Thou My Vision to this sweet child. At first, it might have been the only song that came to mind, but it's become my prayer for this child. Oh how...
My heart is sad and burdened today. I woke up hoping for a happy, fun day. It's our son's "life day" as I so aptly coined with my good friend +Damaris . We found out a year ago that he was alive. We heard his beautiful heartbeat 5-6 weeks later. It's also his four month birthday. I'm not sure if it was watching our super...
I want an arrow tattoo. Yes. I know. Another tattoo. AND of something that has all of a sudden become popular. Arrows are in. I didn't know this though when I chose and prayed over a verse for our sweet Watson Graeme. God brought this verse to my attention again today through a dear sweet friend. Watson and I woke up this morning,...
I no longer need an alarm clock. I'm up every three hours, so it seems unnecessary. This morning, I woke up, fed Watson, made some breakfast I ended up not having time to eat, brushed my teeth, and left Seth with the baby and I walked down the road to the dentist. It was the most relaxing experience at the dentist I've ever...
My whole life I've dreamed of being a mommy. Never would I have been able to understand what a hard but rewarding job it would be, despite all the mommys that said no one understands until they become a mom. The past two months have been a blur... and what I wouldn't give for 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep... but not to risk...
No one ever told me "the hardest thing you'll ever do is breast feed." I wish they would've, but how would they have known? I need to throw in the disclaimer that the following is my story, and isn't everyone's but I so wish that I would have known what I know now, when preparing to be a mommy... so I feel a...
We spent Saturday at Ikea while our apartment was being shown to potential renters. I had wanted to get the foot stool to the chair I will use for nursing. We did! We had a great time looking at different things there and planning for our future home with Watson. We did a lot of walking, and it was tough for me to...
I received my very first Mother's Day card from my wonderful husband yesterday. (I also got a super special one from my own mommy!) I know I cannot truly begin to say that I know what it feels like to be a mother, but I'm excited for the journey. God is knitting together a sweet baby boy inside of me and I'm so...
Watson loves to sit on my belly button. He loves kicking the right upper side of my belly and I really like rubbing his back when I can find it. :-) I have decided he likes it too. I'm 30 weeks pregnant. I have 10 more weeks (give or take) to go. I cannot believe it! My sweet friends Loren and Gretyl threw us...
Today I have exactly 3 months until Watson's due date. Can you believe it? Here's what's new: 1. I do not have Gestational Diabetes. I'm a slight hypochondriac and convinced myself I might ;-). Turns out I don't. 2. Watson is moving more and more each day (where I can feel it at least). A week ago it felt like he was doing...
Not the best lighting and/or photo - but it works ;-) How Far Along? 24 weeks, 6 days (25 tomorrow) Symptoms: Round ligament pain, acid reflux... Sleep: The past two weeks have been an improvement! Food Cravings: protein and meat! Best Moment This Week: SEEING Watson kick. Movement: Usually at night! All but 3 of my students have gotten to feel him kick :-) Gender: Boy!! Belly Button In Or...