What is your legacy?

well, i've learned some new things about me. or i've newly learned them.. not sure which.

i'm really bad at doing things with people that hasn't been planned. any ounce of being spontaneous has disappeared lately.

i'm very indecisive, and sometimes wonder how people can be so sure of everything and of life. I get nervous and worry and get confused so easily over small things - like tiny things.

I'm not always good at making my own decisions. i want someone to tell me what to do when I don't know what to do. I want things to be simple. I don't like conflicts.. like which way to wear my wedding dress. I want to solve things immediately. I don't like waiting a week, b/c i know i'll worry and be stressed out for a week.

I'm really bad at keeping in touch with people I don't see face to face. I also don't seem to make much of an effort to see people, lately. I don't like it. I get to busy with life (or my life) to really invest in or spend time in other lives.

i started teaching first grade at church. They are really cute. It's been so long that I've taught that age group, that I kind of freaked out inside b/c i'm now used to high school. But i'm excited.

I want to cling to Father more.