i had more, but it got deleted. :(

Today, I was reminded of the great love of Father and the divine appointments he has in our lives. I was reminded of how he chose you.. that one person reading my blog, out of everyone in the world to be where you are and do what you are doing when you are doing it. That everything he does has a HUGE purpose, and he is this glorious, mighty genius, we get to call Father.

There is a story, that I know you know well of the woman at the well. Father placed her at the well, Jesus was there - perfect timing, God's timing. She's the perfect representation of what it is to be human and trusting in self and worldly things and passions.

After questioning Jesus' intentions, Jesus says to her "If you knew the gift of God, and who it is that is saying to you, "give me a drink," you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water."

This woman looks, I would like to think, in the eyes of Jesus - but that's not recorded, and says to Jesus, Sir, you have nothing to draw water with and the well is deep...."

I'm not entirely sure where this post going... other than the beautiful picture of how human this woman of samaria is in painting a picture of our own souls. How many times do we look at Jesus and tell him that our problems are too deep, he has nothing to draw this water with. His grace ISN'T enough.

but it is. If we drink the water he offers, we will never thirst again... <3

what i've learned...

well, i've learned some new things about me. or i've newly learned them.. not sure which.

i'm really bad at doing things with people that hasn't been planned. any ounce of being spontaneous has disappeared lately.

i'm very indecisive, and sometimes wonder how people can be so sure of everything and of life. I get nervous and worry and get confused so easily over small things - like tiny things.

I'm not always good at making my own decisions. i want someone to tell me what to do when I don't know what to do. I want things to be simple. I don't like conflicts.. like which way to wear my wedding dress. I want to solve things immediately. I don't like waiting a week, b/c i know i'll worry and be stressed out for a week.

I'm really bad at keeping in touch with people I don't see face to face. I also don't seem to make much of an effort to see people, lately. I don't like it. I get to busy with life (or my life) to really invest in or spend time in other lives.

i started teaching first grade at church. They are really cute. It's been so long that I've taught that age group, that I kind of freaked out inside b/c i'm now used to high school. But i'm excited.

I want to cling to Father more.

It's Christmas time. :-)
Yay

Cute Purikura Online cute

Wait? What? I have a blog?

Sometimes I wonder if I'm enough... if I'll ever be enough, if i'll satisfy, if I'll always make him happy, if I'll even be able to make him happy. Sometimes I wonder if I'm not as great as the last person, sometimes I wonder if I'm not as pretty or as nice or kind, or fun, or tall or giving or as independent (less clingy, able to do things on my own), and the list goes on and on and on and then I realize.. i've got it all wrong. I'm focusing on me and not on us. More importantly, i'm focusing on me/us and not on Christ. This is where I fall short.

I want to cling to the cross and I want that to be reality and not just a great idea. I want to hunger for the word and live it in every thing I say, every decision I make, every step I take... and I long to satisfy Christ.... that is where I should find my worth.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for a hope and a future.

<3

Life has been so crazy, yet so exciting at the same time. Since the last time I've updated, I'm halfway through my hardest semester, feel like the end is near but no where in site at the same time, I've been engaged for seven months, I'm living with a couple that works at and attends ASU and I get to go to a Dallas Cowboy Football game. I'm getting to fellowship and hangout and study the word with 4-5 amazing girls on Wednesdays at school and I am hanging out with a group of people who are seeking Christ on Thursday nights. Seth and I are goign to 'marriage mentoring' and i'm falling more and more in love with Seth every day.

Lara

mainly for me to grasp it all..

What my semester looks like:
Managing Editor at Ram Page
Working for information technology (possibly in multimedia)
2+ hours at Central High School every week
18 hours of classes
Independant study researching portrayal of obama/american politics in German media.
Wedding Planning
Studying for teXes exCet exams
Studying for German exit exam

niel cole wrote this in cultivating..
When I get busy, I tend to forget the most imprtant reason why I’m here- my prime directive: to make more and better disciples. (Matt 23:18-20)! In fact, unlike Jesus, the busier I become, the more I lose compassion for the lost. It doesn’t take much for the multitudes to become more of a stumbling block to impede my effectiveness rather than a reason for becoming effective….A long line is an obstacle rather than an opportunity.

Today my calendar says that love is powerful.