What is your legacy?

Almost everyone I've worked with overseas has said, "I want to go without going through an organization." I'll even admit I have said these words, but right now as I sit here at working with tears in my eyes, I realize that not going through an organization is one of the hardest things I've ever done. Not only does it seem more impossible to raise all the money (having no idea how much I truly need), it's also discouraging because as I recieve emails from the M and relay that information to my dad, it just gets more confusing. When it was through an organization there was no question of what was going on. I guess they did all the "dirty work." It's hard, and frustrating and I feel like nothing will ever get accomplished; in fact I don't truly think i'm really going overseas and probably won't believe it until I'm actually there. I know this will all work out someway or another, God stays true to his promises. Perhaps his promise is just to teach me a lesson and I will end up not even going back to Germany.... regardless of his calling, I choose to be obedient.

I'm sitting her working on ediiting a story I had written 2 (almost 3) years ago about the calling Father placed on my heart in Japan, and as I re-word the work and better write some of these things, I realize images Father had put into my mind and memory those years ago. I realize how naieve I was, but also how trusting I was.

I'm praying for clarity and comfort this weekend. I'm tired of doubting and second-guessing God.


However this news is exciting: I found out the team in HB will be workign in Cologne for 2 weeks to help with Super Summer Global and Falls Creek. :)

Visas; necessary but an obstacle. I'm *thinking* about my visa; and soon will be figuring out what exactly I need to do to get one. I have all the documents printed; but I have to go to houston and do some other things before i can get it all done. I only hope i can do it all in time to get it at the appropriate time. So... I would consider this a prayer request, because as trivial as it seems to me, it is quite important in the grand scheme of things.


Next week, I will be meeting with Jill Schneller; my contact in Hannover (English teacher at the University) to meet her (again) and to talk to her about my stay there. I DID recieve my acceptance letter to the university (which is nescessary in getting a visa!) so everything seems to be coming together. :-)

PR's from HB:

Father is bringing many opportunities to light for the team in HB; he is bringing them to conversations and relationships that are showing Father not only to the nations but to the team as well. In reading their newsletter it is exciting to see how Father is answering specific prayers and how he is allowing the team to share LIFE with everyone they meet. In 1 Thessalonians 2, Paul says, "We loved you so much that we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well, because you had become so dear to us." My prayer is that this could be our attitudes with BOTH believers and non-believers. Share your life, and allow yourself to be vulnerable to everyone you meet. Enjoy moments, and sieze opportunities. Pray, be intentional, disciple, share life. Ministry doesn't have it's set times, life is ministry.