Things can get confusing on the field. I guess... things can get confusing wherever you are. (you will have to excuse my many typos.. german keyboards are crazy). It is hard really knowing what my place is. I am told I am here to encourage the interns, which is good, but I also feel much of my time if filled with logistical things. Now, I, out of the 'staff' should not be complaining, because I probably do the fewest logistical things out of all of them... it is just super hard. I dont truly know my place, nor do i know my true purpose. I want to reach the people here. I want to speak to them. I want to build relationships. I am ready for this summer to begin.. and while, yes, I am here in Germany, it simply feels as if we are still in the calm before the storm. Over the past couple of days i have cried a lot, and i honestly dont think those tears are related to jet lag in any way. I need encouragement from mentors, from friends. The interns have been wonderful. I love my apartment girls... and well, all of them really. We can share anything with each other, and i am so happy i am not only their "leader" but their friend as well. (That was one of my hugest fears). (and what can I say I have had good leaders in my past to base my leading style on-- colby and leslie, marcus, kat). Team unity is great... better than could be imagined. I am struggling a lot. I am confused, but i am learning.. and sometimes the tears are a part of that.