It's the first of June... and of course, I'm unsure as to where I should begin. The weather has definitely changed to hot and humid, and the lack of air conditioning is becoming evident. I am learning to find happiness in each and every day.. I am learning to thrill and seek Christ.

Over the past month I have learned some pretty huge lessons. One is that I am human, and that when I fail, even the slightest bit it isn't proof of my sheer and utter unworthiness. I fail, it's natural, and it's not the end of the world. But it hurts and I hurt, but I am learning.

I am learning that people do love me. Even though I deem myself as incapable of being loved, that I have to allow people to love me. When I hear the words, I have to accept that they are true. When I am thinking clearly, I suppose I realize and believe and understand that people do love me. That love doesn't always express itself in adoration. I feel selfish for wanting to feel loved, yet then this month has shown me that I don't give people the chance TO love me. It's natural and not selfish for me to want to feel important or be known by my friends, my family and even Christ.

I long to truly trust in Christ and his words, rather than the words of man. I want my faith to build and continually build.

I have two months left. I want to make these two months the best I have ever lived... where to start, i'm not completely sure, but I feel Father is calling me to something bigger than myself. He is calling me to Him, and I've never felt the call so strong. I long to see Him glorified. I am being drawn to prayer.... deep prayer. Perhaps this is where I begin, and Father will continue to reveal more.

Thank you all,
Lara