So what do I learn from this? How do I move on?

Well first off, I have learned how great the God I serve is. He has drawn me to himself, shown me that I cannot and should not try to find my worth in man. He has shown me places in my heart that need to be broken and changed, that I struggle with wanting to be heard instead of simply listening.. and is teaching me to keep silent when I should. Biblical submission is something I have to learn, as a follower of Christ, as a woman. The idea of placing Christ first and to put my faith and trust and hope fully in him is one I hear often, one I think I understand, but is not one I truly know with my heart. I do not want to get caught up in what was, what could have been, what could be or what will be, I want to get caught up in Christ. I do not want to harbor anger or sadness, I want to find joy in Father. I want to live for Christ.... wherever He takes me, I am willing and ready and happy to serve. Today, I was writing a letter to a friend on a napkin while sitting at a coffee shop... on it, I was writing to her, but it was almost as if Christ was speaking to me as I wrote the words. “You are on my heart and mind. You know... sometimes everything seems unclear, even the present situations we find ourselves in – but as much as you know this... PLACE YOUR HEART IN CHRIST'S HANDS. Let GO and look to Father.”