that's what Paul freaking said!

Since many are boasting in the way the world does, I too will boast. You gladly put up with fools since you are so wise! In fact, you even put up with anyone who enslaves you or exploits you or takes advantage of you or pushes himself forward or slaps you in the face. To my shame I admit that we were too weak for that!

What anyone else dares to boast about—I am speaking as a fool—I also dare to boast about. Are they Hebrews? So am I. Are they Israelites? So am I. Are they Abraham's descendants? So am I. Are they servants of Christ? (I am out of my mind to talk like this.) I am more. I have worked much harder....

Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for all the churches. Who is weak, and I do not feel weak? Who is led into sin, and I do not inwardly burn?

If i must boast, i will boast of the things that show my weakness.

2 Corinthians

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I would like to go to syria.

Thanks! - Lara

let's go back three years....

Sophomore Year of College.... we were so cute.

Thanksgiving thoughts?

I think something I struggle with is the concept that God loves me just as much as he loves the next person. I don’t see myself as better than, and I do view the God I serve as a personal God, but I think ii tend to view my relationship with him extremely different than someone else’s relationship. To an extent that is true. God speaks to me in different ways than he speaks to someone else, he TEACHES me in different ways than someone else, because he has made me different, he has made us all different. Christ knows how he formed me and he knows the best way to speak to me, to grow me, to teach me. So in those ways, my relationship with Christ is different than other people's relationship with him. However, as I read through 2 Corinthians I see, as Paul points out that we are just as much Christ’s as the next believer. I know this, I believe this, I understand this, but sometimes I forget this… not in a selfish way, not in a mean way, not in a conceited way… but when I remember this, I am actually overjoyed. People know this God. He is real, he’s not just mine, but he speaks to everyone, he speaks through us and he grabs our attention. This Christ is REAL….

Also for random sake I love that even though he can see my ugliness, he doesn’t see me as ugly.
Humbling, really.


ALSO Garrett Lively pointed out that Bethlahem means house of bread, so the bread of life was born in a bakery. (ha ha)

yes i do care, yes i know you do not.

Thanks

Thanksgiving, although I am spending mine mostly alone until the evening, is a time that I cherish. In the midst of everything going on, it's good to just stop and reflect... to look at what I'm learning and how far I've come.


I've been reading 2 Corinthians. Today, as I read chapter 11 I heard Paul. I heard the tone of his voice I heard his hurt, his longing, his desire for Christ... to be known, his desire for believers to be discipled. He hurts when his brothers/sisters hurt.

I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for that in other believers.

my first proposal

it's only the cover letter, the rest is a bit boring, so i won't post it.... and i'm mainly posting it so lena can see her cute kitties

I'm a Lab Tech, I'm a geek, let's get over it....:)

even though i mostly hate it, i love working for information technology because of the people it has brought into my life. <3 <3 (mostly)

i'll post photos later, yo.

Lara jo




someday i will drive one of those. <3

What does it say

so many are dying to have their eyes read.

a girl I am extremely close to spoke so many words to me through her eyes a couple of weeks ago. She doesn't even know I took into account how her eyes spoke, and I doubt she realises how much she said through one look. Even today that look brings me to tears.

We speak through our eyes... and we rarely take those glances, those looks, those WINDOWS INTO SOULS (yes a bit cliche) into consideration.

I long to speak stories through my eyes.... and speak more with my eyes, with my heart with my actions than with my words.

that is all for today!

bye bye

sometimes memories are a good thing

There are many places where Paul says "I die everyday," and every time I read this, I am reminded that that is our call. Paul says he counts everything as loss compared to knowing Christ. He claims that even though he comes trembling and in weakness and fear that he wants to know Christ and him crucified and that's it. Through reading the word, specifically 1 Corinthians, Father is showing me daily that I have to give up my hopes and my desires, my wants and my needs. That i can't constantly compare myself, because in doing so it's spiritual suicide. That all past trips, past experiences should be placed aside because I want to know nothing but Christ and him crucified. That's what I learned two weeks ago. Today as I sat over 1 Corinthians and discussed it w/ Stephie that again was taught, but I realized that I can't live for my profit, even my own spiritual profit, but for others. That i should show love to others, not so I feel comfortable or good, but for their hearts. If I am doing things for human reasons, what have I gained. Paul even poses the same question... What are my motivations? Christ's call upon my life, or my desires. Am I living in the flesh, am I trying to live in my own strength, or in the strength of Father... am I living in the spirit?

future of me

I wrote this on Charles' wall, and i think i inspired myself about my future.

Sorry, Charles that you have to read it twice.


dang, well if possible my plan would be to tag along with you guys ;-)

nah, i have no idea-- finish school, work in the journalism field... but i'd like to see how all my passions become eventually meshed together- for overseas, for people to know father, for seeking out news and sharing, for giving the voiceless a voice, for teaching and for the language of german... interesting combinations, no idea how they will go together, but i'm confident that they will

look here

I'm admitting it.

I MISS HANNOVER.

I miss everyone... a lot.

hm

Great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised, and his greatness is unsearchable.

One generation shall commend your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts. On the glorious splendor of your majesty, and on your wondrous works I meditate....

The Lord is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
The Lord is good to all, and his mercy is over all that he has made.

(parts of) Psalm 145



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i voted today. pretty neat.

monday

I am not sure what I long for. Currently. I long for peace and lack of confusion. I long for souls to know the captivating and wonderful love of Father... I long for those things. I know that... what I don't know is what I long for. Where is my life going? What are my plans? What will I be when I grow up? I don't know those things. I've been told I never will-- and that is why again, I have to learn to live one day at a time. One moment as it comes.

There are days I feel invincible and others that I feel weak, tired unsure and unstable. I think this may just be a part of the human condition-- the fact that I won't receive perfection until heaven... that my soul is aching to be with Christ and see him. I don't really know, I kind of just said that because it sounded good... but it's a good theory.

I applied for one internship and I'm not really nervous about it-- mainly because I'm pretty for certain I won't get it-- and that's OK with me. As Dr. Boone said, "you'll never know if you don't apply." That is true. What a genius of a guy.

Lately the idea that c-dawg put into my thoughts has been coming up- The idea that we, as christians, are educated beyond our capability of obedience.

I think there has been a ton lost in our ability to know what obedience looks like. We think obedience is defined by if we read our bible daily-- shouldn't reading our bible draw us to active biblical decisions, to prayer, to living out the words of the bible in our lives?
what happened to that.