guess just pray for me--

i am not understanding my homework at all for grammar, and the exam is not until January 22nd... but i HAVE to do well on the exam or I don't even pass the class. and I really have no way to know how i'm doing in the class. I feel like i won't be able to remember everything.. and i'm stressing now because Naomi will be here which is not stressful but what is stressful is that I will feel bad for studying.. so, pray that i'll find time to study, that I will study affectively, that i will begin to understand, and that i will just feel at peace and content. i just feel anxious and nervous when i can't understand things.

I am not putting myself down when i say this but i am literally the dumbest one in all my classes. Today in Phonetik i felt like such a fool because she kept having me read out loud and then make everyone analyze what i said or did wrong. i felt so stupid. Things like that make me not want to try anymore.

things will come together i'm sure, and if i fail the class... oh well, i fail... i'll make up for it in san angelo somehow.

right?

<3

lara